It's been a long time since I've written- I honestly don't know if anyone reads, but it definitely feels good just to put how I feel or what's going on in my life out there. I suppose the correct term is "therapeutic". Everyone needs something like that every once in a while. It seems so often that the things I do lose "soul'- things like planting flowers are not joyful activities but things on a to-do list that is too long for any one person to actually accomplish. I rarely do anything because it actually gives me emotional fulfillment but rather mental peace- it's another item off of an infinite checklist.
I'm back in school, which means that the commodity of time is at an all time premium price. I'm a business major now, which means I get to do things like accounting and economics- time intensive and requiring full mental faculties. It's hard work, it's a lot of driving (I live 43 miles from school), but it's happening finally that I'm moving on so that I may have better tools to make a better life. Hopefully it'll be a fuller but more peaceful life. I realize I'm still trying to get a real steady foundation built, and I can't wait for the day that I get to actually build a frame.
I'm trying really hard to learn how to balance life. Sometimes, it's so much more important to stop and take a moment to enjoy what's around you- professors don't necessarily understand that, but I'm really beginning to get it.
Life is work, but life is also joy in tiny, lovely things.