Failure

I got a letter from Tulane today.

I didn't get in.

I'm not sure what to do. I've worked my ass off. And it's not enough.

I'm not usually a defeatist, but I feel completely fucked.

So many bad things have happened in the past few weeks. Is shit ever gonna get better?

Seriously, grandmother dying+ nephew car accident+ f4 tornado that wipes out everyone's shit+ 19-year old friend dying+ inability to pay electric bill resulting in living like the Amish (sans electricity)+denial into the college I wanted to go to so bad I could taste it= shittiest year ever. It's only May! How the hell does this much bad shit happen in five months? 2010 can go suck a cock and die.